Just being honest...

Man this has been a hot and dry summer.  The grass had stopped growing.  It began to turn crunchy and brown and the tree's almost looked fall-ish they were so dry and discolored.   The outdoor life had been dying and in desperate need of some water.  We got some much needed showers this week and we were praising God for his abundant blessing in bringing the rain.

If I'm honest, I feel like I have been in a drought the past couple months.  It's been tough.  At times I have felt a lot like the creation around me...Just kind of barely hanging on...
 I have been in need of  refreshment.  I've been thirsty, weary and I have been lonely.  I have been hurt and God has purged relationships (that is never fun).   He has chiseled away and is continuing to remove the things in my life that are unpleasing to Him.

But just like God brought water to the dying plants, and grass, and vegetation, He has showered me with love and grace.  He has refreshed my soul.   Mostly He has shown Himself to me in a way I have never experienced.  He has been sufficient,  I know the true feeling of having a friend in God.  Our communication has changed and deepened and He is a part of every detail of my day.  The Lord brought me to a place of deep reliance upon Him.  When it was dark and I was not sure  where He was directing me, His word WAS a lamp to my feet and a light for my path (Psalm 119:105).  


There is a song I have on my playlist while I run.   "Come to the River" By Rhett Walker Band.
The words are:
 You said, Come to the River.  
Oh Lay yourself down.  
Let your heart be found.  
You said, Come to the river.  
Drink from the cup I pour.  
And thirst no more.  

I feel like God has brought me to this place in my life to do just that...Come to the river.  Not just any river, but His river.  He wanted/needed to fill me with Him.   I  know I get so busy with life and so sidetracked with the places I have to go, and the meals I need to make, and the laundry that needs to be done and put away so I can have a perfect little home, that I don't see the Lord waving his hand in my face to come get a drink.  To stop what I am doing and drink Him in.   I tend to wait till I am already parched.

I can say I am thankful for God's teaching moments.  For the fact He loves me enough to bring me through a storm so that He can be glorified through my life.  That's all I want.  To Glorify Him in all I do.

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."  Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest in my.

2 Corinthians 12:9